#170 In which our hero reveals hidden desires.
Today is the kick-off of NaBloPoMo, in which I’ve committed to posting every day of the month, starting today. And I’m already late by my self-imposed timetable. Doesn’t bode well for the rest of the month.
When considering undertaking this task, I sat back and asked myself why bother. I mean, yeah, there are prizes, but none of them are a big screen TV or something super exciting (even though they are all very nice, and the original painting by Matt Hooker is especially cool). But honestly, I never win these things. I’ve realized that there is a deeper reason that I not only entered NaBloPoMo, but that I keep on blogging in general.
I want to be an Internet superstar.
I find myself covetous of bloggers who seem to have a big following; whose posts regularly garner lots of comments. There seems to be a fairly small universe of “superstar bloggers” who name-check each other, driving traffic between their sites. I want to be one of those guys!
I’m not sure why… it’s an ego boost, of course, but it’s not like I judge my personal worth by the number of people reading my posts. Matter of fact, when more than one person comments on one of my posts, it’s usually to attack me. I’ve been called stupid, a shithead and, on one memorable occasion, a “scuz bucket” who was “more scuz than bucket” (I might have deserved that last one, at least a little bit).
Anyway, I continue to write. And I want people to read (and react) to my stuff. Maybe it’s because I think I can tell a decent story and want to share that ability with others; maybe it’s because I’m an attention whore; maybe it’s because I have something really, really wrong hidden deep inside by psyche.
Or maybe it’s just because, like the title says, I'm scripturient.
6 Comments:
I read your blog, but I'm not sure if that counts.
However, you'll always be a superstar in my book.
3:39 PM
I read your blog, on a fairly regular basis, since you're actually someone I knew at 'The' OSU, and deal with many of the same issues that I do (parenting, working, attempting to maintain a relationship, etc.) but the reality is, as far as I can tell, you are a superstar to two little girls and one adult (who happens to be the mother of the little ones). In this day and age, that's really something.
Oh, can I get your autograph?
:)
6:09 PM
I still catch your blog occasionally. You know, your kids will love to read this stuff when they are older.
10:54 PM
I've still got that "I [heart] Scripturient" shirt in the works! ;)
3:50 PM
I read every word of your blog. I wait impatiently for you to post. I sigh dreamily and wish everyone wrote as well as you do. I think you are wonderful.
The Scientist did not pay me to write this. No, really, she didn't. Honest...
11:50 PM
It's a random draw so maybe you'll get hooked up. God that sounded like a terrible pun. Not intended. Swear.
3:20 PM
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